Archive for October, 2006

November

Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

WORD GAME:

dread… not about horror and halloween stuff… start of the second sem… readjustments… da return op da comeback… tatay manding… installation… fr arceo… will there be new about ust?…  research methods… 3philo… powerhouse roster (goodluck guys!)… leo garcia… ateneo… wednesday sked… hornedo… gradschool… dread… christmas… prior to that… thirteen… change… radical ones… unexpected turns… wouldve been nice… fear… christmas… sad… scrooge… should be happy… but it is not… tears… lost… brat… worth… expectations… disappointments… happy feet… traumas… dissertation… power… force… effort… will… truth… good… stay… go… no… sure… i dunno… faculty show… fun… scapegoats… paskuhan… friends… reunions… cold… gifts… family… Jesus’ birthday… love… dread… fear… pray… wish… best… surrender… hold on… Lord!!!… Bacolod… convent… scapegoat… face… fears… brave… strong… alone… hope not… scared.

LORD…

*and I am listening to Waveback Wednesday… whatta… ?!

November

Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

WORD GAME:

dread… not about horror and halloween stuff… start of the second sem… readjustments… da return op da comeback… tatay manding… installation… fr arceo… will there be new about ust?…  research methods… 3philo… powerhouse roster (goodluck guys!)… leo garcia… ateneo… wednesday sked… hornedo… gradschool… dread… christmas… prior to that… thirteen… change… radical ones… unexpected turns… wouldve been nice… fear… christmas… sad… scrooge… should be happy… but it is not… tears… lost… brat… worth… expectations… disappointments… happy feet… traumas… dissertation… power… force… effort… will… truth… good… stay… go… no… sure… i dunno… faculty show… fun… scapegoats… paskuhan… friends… reunions… cold… gifts… family… Jesus’ birthday… love… dread… fear… pray… wish… best… surrender… hold on… Lord!!!… Bacolod… convent… scapegoat… face… fears… brave… strong… alone… hope not… scared.

LORD…

*and I am listening to Waveback Wednesday… whatta… ?!

November

Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

WORD GAME:

dread… not about horror and halloween stuff… start of the second sem… readjustments… da return op da comeback… tatay manding… installation… fr arceo… will there be new about ust?…  research methods… 3philo… powerhouse roster (goodluck guys!)… leo garcia… ateneo… wednesday sked… hornedo… gradschool… dread… christmas… prior to that… thirteen… change… radical ones… unexpected turns… wouldve been nice… fear… christmas… sad… scrooge… should be happy… but it is not… tears… lost… brat… worth… expectations… disappointments… happy feet… traumas… dissertation… power… force… effort… will… truth… good… stay… go… no… sure… i dunno… faculty show… fun… scapegoats… paskuhan… friends… reunions… cold… gifts… family… Jesus’ birthday… love… dread… fear… pray… wish… best… surrender… hold on… Lord!!!… Bacolod… convent… scapegoat… face… fears… brave… strong… alone… hope not… scared.

LORD…

*and I am listening to Waveback Wednesday… whatta… ?!

sa biyaya ng buhay

Saturday, October 28th, 2006

sa loob ng isang taon:

* marami kang pinaranas sa aking ang ilan
ay di ko pa nga maintindinhan. matamis man o masaklap, itinuturing ko
itong biyaya. salamat. wag kang mag-alala, walang humpay akong
maninindigan.
* may mga responsibilidad kang pinapasan sa aking
balikat. bagaman mahirap gampanan, salamat pa rin — naniniwala ka sa
aking kakayanan.
* binigyan mo ako ng mga pagkakataong ipagsabay ang
isip at pandama. salamat sa mga taong dapat panindigan, at para na rin
sa mga pinagpasyahan kong bitawan pansamantala — dahil sa kanila’y
naging dalisay ang pagpapakahulugan ko sa katapatan, katotohanan at
kabutihan.
* sa mga munting anghel na bumubuo ng aking araw.  salamat sa mga estudyanteng bukal sa loob ang kagustuhang matuto.
*
itinuro mo sa akin ang tunay na kahulugan ng pag-ibig. inilabas mo ako
sa magaang konsepto’t binalibag sa katotohanang ito’y pinaghihirapan at
hinihila sapagkat naka-angkla ito sa mabigat na batong kung tawagi’y
"kabutihan". salamat sa pagpapa-alalang iiral ito sa kabila ng lahat ng
hirap ngunit sa ngalan lamang ng kabutihan at walang humpay na paglago.
salamat sa mga buhay na guro ng pag-ibig, sa mga buhay na biyaya, sa
dahilan ng bawat tawa at pagpatak ng luha.

ang lahat ng ito’y
nagpatanto na ako pala’y isang tao — na sa kabila ng kahinaa’y
lumalaban, sumusugal, nakikipagsapalaran, lumalago, nagmamahal.
pinagdaanan ko ang lahat ng iyon para sa iyo, dahil sinabi mo.

salamat po sa walang sawang pag-alala sa iyong lingkod.  salamat sa mga alaala at sa mga bubuuin pang alaala.

bagaman di naging madali ang buhay, salamat salamat salamat.

amen.

p.s. pero kung may paraang mapagaan, di rin naman po ako magrereklamo *hehehe (humirit pa eh)

Cross-post: Aplayang Munti Med Mission

Friday, October 27th, 2006

Now at the vox blog, under the entry "disembodied minds no more".

Photos are available in one of my friendster photo albums.

when arms cant bear, where one can hide, where it’s safe inside

Tuesday, October 24th, 2006

ARMS OF LOVE
Gary Chapman, Michael W. Smith and Amy GrantStand_by_me_still_1

performed by Veepee Pinpin
in the CD Stand by me still

Lord I’m really glad You’re here.

I hope You feel the same
When You see all my fears
And how I fail, I fall sometimes

It’s had to walk on shifting sand
I miss the rock and find
I’ve nowhere left to stand
I start to cry, Lord please help me!

Bridge:
Raise my hands
so You can lift me up
Hold me close.
Hold me tighter.

Refrain:
I have found a place where I can hide.
It’s safe inside Your arms of love.
Like a child who’s held throughout the storm,
You keep me warm in Your arms of love.

Storms may come and storms may go.
I wonder just how many storms it takes until,
I finally know You’re here always.

Bridge2:
Even when my skies are far from gray,
I can stay.  Teach me to stay there –

Refrain2:
In the place I’ve found where I can hide.
It’s safe inside Your arms of love.
Like a child who’s held throughout the storm,
You keep me warm in Your arms of love
In Your arms of love.

More Rare Youtube Finds

Sunday, October 22nd, 2006

To a trying-hard maldita, then and again, God hath said:  "Kahit anong gawin mo di talaga pwede sa iyo.  Di bagay anak, mag youtube ka na lang!"

Simeon’s Canticle by Hangad

Magnificat by Hangad

Let Your Praises be Heard by Bukas Palad

Paghahandog by Noel Cabangon, Cookie Chua and BP

Pauwi Na by Noel Cabangon

How Lovely is Your Dwelling Place by Himig Heswita (medyo videoke style pero okay na…)

Humayo’t Ihayag by Bukas Palad

I Will Sing Forever by Bukas Palad

JMM in You Tube

Saturday, October 21st, 2006

It seems like my patience is shrinking as I get older.  And while doing something about it (blame it on my anti-virus, I almost hated the entire world before I went to bed last night), I logged on to the Bukas Palad Community Board and discovered some nice stuff.  I dunno how to embed videos here so the most that i could do is to post the url.  Here goes,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqBXwkWigVE O Bayan ng Diyos MTV

look for Rina Rizza Ramo here.  =)

There’ll be more to come folks. 

Thanks to my BPOC friends.  Long time no (virtual) see.

the sem that was 3

Friday, October 20th, 2006

the third out of three…

* KATOK MGA MISIS PANTRY CLUB
- Having lunch at the AB Faculty Room had never been so exciting until "mommies" gather and talk about random things.  As Sir Bong once commented, "para akong nanonood ng TV, andaming segments."  Meron sa paglalaba, pagluluto, pag-aalaga ng bata, kwentong may asawa, pagtitipid, at kung anu-ano pa.  Since this seems to be their common breaktime, they take it as a sort of bonding.  On the part of the young and single teachers (like Ma’am Cielo, Ma’am Dors and me), listening to them is yea, like watching tv and learning from a sort of seminar.  Oh well, my mommies jokingly promised that they’ll teach me more, they’ll soon give me a seminar on a li’l of everything and i am so looking forward to that.  Hehehe.

* REGULAR ANTICIPATED MASSES
- It must be this activity that kept me up for the entire sem.  For the first few weeks, I still managed to run to Sto. Domingo for the 6pm mass, but when August came I got a bit restricted and heard my masses instead at the UST Chapel.  I hope that a beautiful habit will emerge as I am serious about getting on with the practice next sem.

* THE COMPUTER ROOM AND THE ORTIGAS-TRIP GANG
- This is the freedom room - with sensible people talking about work, research while dancing My Humps and Push the Button at the same time.  Though I’ve been always close to Ma’am Dors, it is only within this sem when I started to bond with Ma’am Leah and Sir Jeff.  As proof, Sir Jepoy already baptized me with a new name — "Fleur select" pala ha. =P   At nahawa na rin si Sir Ernie, wehehe.

* LICENSE WITHOUT DRIVING
- My non-pro is already a sem-old, but i never had the blessing to drive alone.  This is like an indirect shoutout to my Dad — Please papa, let me drive on my own.  I promise to avoid Optras next time, hehehe.

* YOU TUBE CLASSMATES
- Sirs Ernie, Aldous, Eros, Bob and Dennis, viewing random stuff from Eat Bulaga, Bubble Gang, Michael Fajatin, World Cup, MTVs, etc.  Sadly, our favorite past time is now blocked by the University server.  (proxies, anyone?)

* DA RETURN OF DA COMEBACK
- The last headliner of the sem just made me sooo happy.  I am praying that things will be a lot brighter this time.

the sem that was 2

Friday, October 20th, 2006

the second of three…   

* SERIOUS BUSI-NESS
- You may attribute it to many reasons — enrolment in DW1, teaching comeback at eccle, renewed stint at ua&p, five teaching preps, two difficult subjects with graduating students — sure, there was never a sem when I was given a pretty easy load, but that’s fine.  Am all into the reality that the young should have their share of hardships in order to reap good and worthwhile things at the end.  Hardships indeed helped me grow, being more sufficient and serious with the things that should be settled.  For the sem, I must have garnered an impression that I became casual in talking of philosophy, yet more serious and strict when it comes to requirements.   Aside from that, they also said that my patience is shorter now than before.  Well, how about…
1. the maeutic-sarcasm while entertaining late submittees.
2. receiving goodwill messages from students like, "hi ma’am hope you’re in good mood today" the night before the senior class’ final oral exam in Empiricism.
3. more frequent instances of table-taps/bangs/whacks to shut students up.
4. class presidents voluntarily doing their share in taming their classmates.  (It only happened during this sem)
5. seeing students estimate my sarcasm meter, by observing how far my eyebrows had gone high and how frequent my eyes roll. 

Serves everyone right, I suppose.  Guys (yes, this goes to my students), always remember that discipline is always part of the package.  Learning is not all about data reception and storage, students also ought to give and for that they should be trained on how to give — and aha, that is when discipline enters.  For four semesters of teaching, I learned that teaching is not just a matter of "pointing out", the radical part of it is to push people in doing things that they must not have thought of doing before.  We are being like midwives here.  Sure, the delivery all depends on the mother giving birth, but somebody has to be around to tell her when to "push".
Should philosophy be treated seriously?  I suppose so.  Insofar as this is the only subject that deals with the ultimate principles and causes as known by human reason alone; and inasmuch as it touches the innermost, most stable and unshakable truths about man and his world — doesnt philosophy deserve even our lives?   
Yep, i might be getting stricter and more bothered by unusual and unnecessary interruptions in class.  But I think that’s how it should be.  Philosophy should not be abandoned for it is hard, nor should it be laughed about unless you want it to laugh back at you.  It’s just that when talking of thoughts and life, I really mean serious business.

* PEOPLE OF THE SEM
- It is not that I first encountered only during this sem.  I’ve known most of these people for quite some time, but let’s just say that it was last sem when I had the perfect chance to know them better:
A. FR. RICHARD ANG, OP - the workaholic faculty secretary of eccle. He was our general during the Bing Fa project.  He must have taken Sun Zi seriously that he is applying it in running a busy office that shelters three important faculties in the University.  Way to go father, but as I keep on telling, "just have healthy habits". =)
B. SIR FERDIE LOPEZ - the madam.  While he’s the one in charge of the Philosophy program, I had the chance to know him up close during the accreditation.  Hehe, the guy (errhm, lady - am confused, hehehe) simply knows how to handle pressure.  Albeit things about work that would usually cause nervous breakdown, Sir Ferdie still manages to brighten up the day.  He baptizes people with new names, would always drop a lashing comment or a hilarious joke. 
C. THE M’s (Tracy, Arrah, Kathleen) - The wonder girls of Concilium who had been so cooperative and supportive.  We’ll have more time to spend and lots of work to do, ladies.
D. A COUPLE OF UA&P KIDS - who are aware that thinking requires the removal of any inhibition.  Finally, I got kids who are totally game about putting their corporate and chic modes aside for the sake of extracting firm and unshakeable truths.  Though oftentimes noisy, even if my plantilla is flexed by endless questions and interruptions (thanks to Migs and Allan), and even if mindmaps are converted into mindmazes, I am deeply touched by your sincerity to learn.  Too bad, I cant spend another sem with you IN class (unless you are interested to fail, heheh), so i’ll just see you around folks.
E. THE ECCLE LOGIC CLASS - who would always attempt to make a heretic out of me.  I will always appreciate their being cooperative and inquisitive — especially the Chinese brothers.  Enjoy Criteriology and Logic2 next sem.  Thanks much and I hope that you will all be good servants of the Lord.
F. DARLENE - the girl who will definitely miss her eclectic and eccentric playlist when she finally enters the convent.  Kelan tayo uli mambabadap sor?
G. 1JRN2 - the most energetic advisory class that I’ve ever had.
H. KA GORYO (Gary Granada) - never had a personal connection, but unlike Noel Cabangon’s music that I’ve been quite familiar with for years, it is only during this sem when I started to chew his songs and take ‘em seriously.